31 & 32...Getting there!

32 Weeks! Please look past the dirty mirror. Gross. I feel like I have really popped in the last two weeks!

How far along? 32 weeks 3 days
Total weight gain?  16lbs+. I gained two pounds this month. I start going every other week now so I will be able to keep a closer eye on it. I am supposed to be gaining a pound a week from now on. Yikes!

Maternity clothes?  Still mostly just bottoms. I can get away with bigger size t-shirts but I did buy a few comfy maternity dresses. I should stop. I don't have long to go.

Sleep? I am sleeping...okay. When I am asleep, it's good sleep. However, potty breaks and needing to re-position every hour and heartburn wakes me up a lot. Plus, weird dreams.  I was getting really frustrated one night because I had these dreams that kept waking me up and it took a minute to decide if they were real. I had another dream baby boy came out a baby girl. I seriously hope that doesn't happen.

Best moment of the week?  Getting a good night sleep! Seriously, the heartburn is getting out of control.

Miss anything?  The more uncomfortable I get, the less I miss anything about not being pregnant. That may sound strange but it's true. Every ache, hard kick, heartburn, yucky feeling is a constant reminder that I'M PREGNANT! I am having a baby!! I am going to be a mom! These are the things that I have been dying to experience and I am truly loving every minute. I just stare at myself in the mirror and can't believe what I am seeing. It's all still so surreal. When will I wake-up?

Movement? He is getting big! He rolls a lot and it's the weirdest, coolest feeling in the world. It takes me by surprise sometimes. I am obsessed by his movements. I literally will not get out of bed in the morning until  he gives a few good kicks. Ever since the midwife said I should be doing some sort of kick count, I have been stressed out by his movements. If he is not moving, I get worried. I know babies sleep sometimes too!

Food cravings? Still donuts but I don't indulge. I have also been thinking about cheesecake. I like cheesecake but it's not my favorite. Lately, I really want a piece of Cheesecake Factory cheesecake...I don't care what flavor. I'm too tired and it's too hot for me to do anything about it which I consider a good thing.

Anything make you queasy or sick? No and yes. I feel great aside from heartburn and reflux. Seriously, it's getting pretty bad. Two nights in a row I was up past 1am because I couldn't fall asleep to due the fear of vomiting. Not because I felt sick but that is what the reflux is causing me to do. I vomited three times in the past two weeks because of reflux. I do a pretty good job of keeping it under control with weird grunts and throat clearing but as soon as I fall asleep and my esophagus can relax, that's when the contents of my stomach come back up into my mouth and makes me throw-up. Yuck! I have tried EVERYTHING! Eating small meals, not eating late, sitting up to fall asleep. Nothing works. Pepcid and Tums seem to be losing their effect. It still works okay for the acid neutralizing part. Nothing can stop the reflux! Michael was just told by a co-worker that she threw-up every night for the last month of her pregnancy due to reflux. I am hoping that doesn't happen to me. I am trying to weed out certain foods that make it worse. I think anything with tomato sauce is out for now.

Labor signs? No, no. Still the occasional Braxton Hicks but nothing that gets me concerned. I would know if I was having real contractions, right? Baby boy still has come cooking to do!

Gender?  He had better come out a boy! 

Symptoms? Just heartburn, reflux, BH occasionally. It's getting harder to breathe. I am already looking forward to that first breath after birth! And, I AM HOT! People freeze when they come to our house. It has be 69 degrees or under. It's just too hot otherwise. I try to be nice and turn it up a little when people come over but I end up turning it back down shortly thereafter and get out the blankets. I really didn't notice that I was hotter than most people until I had some people over and everyone was freezing. I was still thinking that for it being 90-100 degrees everyday and pregnant, it was still pretty much...okay.

Happy or Moody? Happy!! Happy!! Happy!! It's getting so close!

Looking forward to...?  My ultrasound tomorrow!! Michael is not very optimistic about the placenta moving. He keeps saying, "we get to find out our baby's birthday this week!". They will schedule the c-section right then and there if it hasn't moved. 37 weeks! I am a little more optimistic. I am hoping the bleeding I have been having is an indication of things moving north. The midwife said it's possible. I am trying to not dwell on things that are out of my control so if it hasn't moved, a c-section it is and I am okay with that. I cried a lot when I looked at youtube videos of c-sections. I really don't want to be cut open. And, I really want to be free to have those first moments with him. But, I know if it's necessary, it's necessary. I have been trying to focus on the positive stuff. Biggest one? Either way, I will have my baby boy here with us, sooner rather than later!

Realization of the week? If I have a c-section he will be here in 5 weeks! We are nearly ready for him. The nursery has just a few finishing touches and some organizing to do. Sometimes I sit in his room and just try to make any of this seem real. It still doesn't. When will this sink in? I feel like we are playing house and preparing all this stuff for him but have convinced myself that we are still pretending. When we talk about our child or children, it still feels like we talk about "someday" or "eventually". Not 5-8 weeks!! We feel so blessed and so loved by so many people who are just are excited for this little guy's arrival as we are.