Continue in Patience...

So...I'm kind of obsessed with this talk Continue in Patience, by Dieter F. Uchtdorf.  It is the whole talk that is in the video I posted in the previous post.  I read it, or bits of it every night.  It is so applicable to my life right now and gives me strength and hope.  There is something he said that hit me like a ton of bricks:

Heavenly Father has a purpose in requiring that His children wait.  Every one of us is called to wait in our own way. We wait for answers to prayers. We wait for things which at the time may appear so right and so good to us that we can’t possibly imagine why Heavenly Father would delay the answer.....But eventually I learned that God’s promises are not always fulfilled as quickly as or in the way we might hope; they come according to His timing and in His ways. Years later.....Looking back, I know for sure that the promises of the Lord, if perhaps not always swift, are always certain.

I know I will have children.  I'm working on being okay with it not being on my time.  If you have a minute, read it.

Precious Sunday...

I had a great Sunday today.  One of the best ever.  I cannot say too much how much I believe in the power prayer and fasting.  I feel so strengthen and supported by all the people who have remembered us in our prayers and taken time out their lives to email or call and see how we are doing and wish us well.  We had a special fast today and the power that comes from that is heavenly.  The Lord is in charge.  It's in His hands now and all we can do from now until the transfer and then the test, is pray and have faith.  It's a much harder concept than I'd like to admit.  I like to be in control and I'm not.  But, I'm willing to trust in the Lord and let his will be done.

I'm doing much better today than I was yesterday.  I know this is going to work.  It just has to.  I have felt for a long time now that it is going to work and only 9 eggs shouldn't change that.  I was just told of two women I know who both got pregnant with IVF, one only had 3 eggs retrieved (twins) and the other, 7 eggs (triplets and a singleton!).  They both even had embies to freeze.  I know our embryos are going to survive long enough to be placed back where they belong.  We want this so much but right now...we wait.  What a test of faith.  Just because things didn't go quite as planned, just because things got a little hard, doesn't mean it won't work.  I bore my testimony in Relief Society today after I resisted the urge in sacrament.  I was so overcome by gratitude to my Heavenly Father, I could not speak.  I know He knows me and knows my heart's desire and I am so grateful for the atonement because this process can be so lonely and I know my Savior has suffered right along with me.